( The text comes from the archives of 2014)
" The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly." - Budda
Travelling on the path of mindfulness is not easy and is not fully visible at once. After having great eye-opening at the beginning of my journey, I also have had moments of disbelief, anxiety and inside horror of living. It seems that for the past few days I forgot about everything I'd learned and I wasn't able to think logically. The dark moments have arrived. A few days ago I made a mistake that affected me both mentally and physically and I started to wonder how fragile I am. Then, though, I thought it may not be a bad situation. Through my mindful approach and with time I was not only able to see the things and how I reacted to them, but I was able to try again and introduce changes for the present and future moments.
We all have problems, troubles, meet unkind people, etc. We all have moments of forgetting ourselves and falling into some deep dark jar of feelings. The trick is, in my opinion, to be able to go out to the sunlight again. Somebody said " the mind falls asleep when demons are awakened", for me it represents this jar of fear, not thinking clearly and not seeing any silver lining.
The true value of mindfulness for me are the moments when we can shake off those feeling and stand up tall again.
I am not writing this piece to let the world know how courageous I am. I just want to tell those who may read that and who go through the same ups and downs that you are not alone. There are thousands of people like you or me and each time we win, it makes us true heroes of everyday life. That those moments don't make us weak people, but on the contrary, we are strong and stronger with every fall.